Sunday, January 01, 2006 @ 3:35 AM
i'm reading upon deuteronomy chapter 29.
i got very encouraged because all the promises that i've prayed for were there. (:
and i learnt more of God's love for us- yet and again. (:
His love is amazing, and too wide for us to ever understand fully. but i try my best to understand.
from deuteronomy chapter 29:15-68 was all about the curses that God will bring upon His people of Israel if they disobeyed Him. and yet and again, i'm reminded of how much God really, really hated sins and how much He loved us to actually sent Jesus. but i learnt deeper about His love for me, for us.
while i was reading the chapter, i was wondering, why was God so fierce? why did God seemed so merciless, to the extend that He would curse the people so much? again, i asked God, "why?"
i didn't get an immediate response from Him, so i prayed longer to God that He'll speak to me.
ask and it shall be given. indeed, God gave me the answer.
i asked Him "why?" again, and He spoke to me and told me because He loved us. He wanted us to stop doing all these, and that's why He had to make these warnings or His curses. and God reminded me that He loved us so much that when we were sad, He felt a million times more sad than us.
and i felt so touched and loved by Him again.
imagine the lives He had taken away during that period of time to help the rest. how much pain had He feel? i dare not imagine. i knew i would cry so hard, even if i tell Him to let me feel just one small little portion of His heart. i know His heart was breaking, everytime He sees His children suffer, everytime they cry. i know He cried so much more than we did.
but He had to do that. He had to help us grow. He knew we would be hurt if He were to test us, but He wanted us to get the best we could have. and because of that, even thought He knew He's going to hurt himself so much more, He did it. all for us. Because He loved us.
and i'm so thankful for this.
and whenever i'm in trials of difficulties, i'll be reminded of His love for me, of how much more hurt He felt, and i know i'll be encouraged to move on. for i know that my love will be there with me to cry, to laugh and to smile.
all for love, He did it all for love.
He's a God who hurts Himself for us.
Hallelujah. thank You Father.
Amen.